Although I nearly passed out recieving an IV. I'm doing when it comes to giving them. I got my mark back for the first major exam we had, and I passed! When the pass mark is 80%.. i think that's something to be proud of.. or.. atleast i am..

anyways, hope all is well elsewhere.. Take Care,

Ash

Writings From The Park. With Nowhere To Go.

From under the picnic bench
I won’t fight the crows
For the precious little pieces;
scraps of chicken bones.

The pools start to shape
Here where I lay
Cause little Tommy was kicking dirt
as he ate; but just wanted to play.

Oh those merry memories
Of this place they all save
But I think of the hole in the woods
And how this won’t do for a grave.

Some Random Thoughts

Those things I said... I don't regret.. I did mean it. But that's not what this blog is about. It's about forgiveness..

I forgive you for your shallow thoughts, your selfish needs, your greed, and your hypocrisy. I am forgiving you, for being you. If I can't change those closest to me, how am I supposed to mend the world? I am coming to terms with the fact that, I will never change you.

All that I ask, is the same forgiveness in return. Along with the acknowledgement that you cannot change me.

That rock you tossed into the stream to make way for your safe crossing might be slippery, should you choose to ever return.

"I can picture in my mind a world without war, a world without hate. And I can picture us attacking that world, because they'd never expect it. " Jack Handy - SNL

Take care,

Ash

Where to start... It has been a while.

I have been busy. I worked my ass off and passed my EMR course. It was really interesting. But i'm not able to be a registered EMR until i have written my provincial exam which won't be until september..

Graham and I have moved out of our places and moved in together downtown in an apartment... it's a nice place.. nothing fancy.. but nice... we have a walk in closet that will be our recording room. which we are both very excited about...

we bought kendo swords today and went down to the river and started playing with them.. they are practice swords.. so we were able to wail on eachother alittle... but we were mostly practicing in slow motion.. it was fun.. our hands are sore.. but it was worth it.

I plan on taking an H2S course sometime this week.. or maybe next week... which means I can work on the oil rigs... hopefully as a first aid.. but we will see how that goes..

umm.. hope everyone is well.. and sorry for the lack of updates.. i have been without internet for a while.. so i feel i have a lot to say.. (which i only mention so i feel i have a promise to keep)

anyways... take care,

ash

Whispers from Edmonton...

Greetings everyone. The day has come for something different. I am blogging... I know, it's crazy!... ANYWAY, I'm excited to tell you that we've been pretty busy lately! We've been working on new songs, and preparing for upcoming shows (none scheduled as of yet). Also, last night we made our first musical "appearance" in Edmonton. We played a small acoustic set at an open stage at a place called "Honest Murs" on whyte ave. It went pretty well. We were well received by all of the 35+ year old blues/rock musicians and their friends. Overall a good experience, but I am very anxious to play a full electric set. :)
Today we rented and set up a bunch of recording equipment, and will commence "audio soul extraction" tomorrow. We're just doing drum tracks, so I’m starting to feel the pressure building. We're doing things differently this time. Instead of recording all the instruments live, and doing vocals later, we are recording everything separately, which will hopefully result in a better overall sounding final product.
If I forgot some stuff, I'm sure Ashley will add on to my incoherent rambling (please do). But until next time friends... keep on keepin on.

Regan

It's strange how fine the line is between romantic and creepy.

I was getting gas one night and the cashier who ever so kindly helped me pay for my fuel was alittle flirty. ( and cute) So.. i left... and in afterthought wanted to go back and give her my number... as i don't really know anyone here in edmonton as of yet.. I thought i was being spontaneous and romantic... So... 2:30 in the morning rolls around and i get out of bed and drive back to the gas station..

Cashier: "Back so soon hey?"
Me: "Yeah... And... I... don't really know how to do this... but... i thought maybe i could give you my number... " I quickly place my name and number ontop of the scratch and win lottery tickets and turn to walk out...
Cashier: "Ummm.. I *have* a boyfriend."
Me: "Oh.. Sorry..."
Cashier: "It's ok."
Me: "Take care." I mumble as I grab the piece of paper off the counter.
Cashier: "Goodnight."

Now.. Was the cashier lying about having a boyfriend? I'm not sure... but i believe she was.. maybe it's my own lack of self esteem that brought me to that conclusion.. or.. maybe my gut instincts are right... but.. if she was lying.. then... well.. i don't know.. i guess i'm a creep.

So... the way i think it works is... if the person who is attempting to be romantic is attractive to the recipient.. then it's romantic.. but if the recipient doesn't find you attractive, then it's stalking.

I think of stories i've heard and seen.. and it only seems to work out for attractive guys.. I mean.. Jim Morrison followed a girl home from the beach, climbed up the tree outside her bedroom window and woke up a complete stranger, who just flopped in his arms and let him have his way with her.. If you don't know who Jim Morrison is, then you would think this story to be very disturbing.. But... if you find a picture of Jim and see how beautiful he was.. then it's romantic - he got the girl.

So without jumping to any conclusions... if by the odd chance that the cashier happens to read this... i wasn't trying to creep you out... I was attempting to be romantic... so... my sincerest apologies...

yeah... this is an open ended blog... food for thought...

It's nice to have somone to finish your sentances. Or to explain the things you feel because you aren't capable of doing it yourself. Sometimes it's good to have blood nearby.

We have a live recording of our newest composition posted on our purevolume site if you would like to check it out. Don't hesitate to give us some feedback either here or through purevolume.

We are in the process of recording again, and look forward to sharing our new music with you.

please visit :)

http://www.purevolume.com/cedarsbloom

Take care,

Ash

Cedar's Bloom sends a big thank you to all who attended our modest performance this weekend. We look forward to sharing more live music with you soon!

I've realized how naive I am when it comes to seeing the truth. The thoughts I tried to ignore are infact the way life is. I find myself taking the shape of a stone, strategically tossed into the middle of the stream to make way for your dry crossing.

Swimming upstream and floating down.

But we're all out of paper
and the wood is still wet
lets cast out our shadows
to fend off the giants we fed
can we rest here awhile?
can we call this place bed?
Just for tonight?

I guess this is just an update on life here in Edmonton. I don't really feel inspired to post lately.. It's better to say nothing at all than ramble about bullshit.. but i guess this blog is a contradiction within itself..

I'm still alive is a good place to start..
Cedar's Bloom is writing new material and we are travelling to Calgary in January to record 1 song as a sort of test for our full official EP. We are recording a song that is currently called Emergency Broadcast. I am working my ass off to figure out how to get the song perfect.. Right now it's about 8 minutes long.. and we need it down to 5 for those with short attention spans.. (and it's probably alittle monotonous.. but i'm overly critical..)

I'm working on a new song that I want to be focused mainly on lyrics... and vocals... i dont' feel i've tapped into any creative melodies with the band yet.. and i want to work more on that... which is going well so far...

there is a rumor right now that we will be inviting people over for a small show during the third weekend of January.. just a performance to hopefully boost moral and start creating an alberta fan base... nothing serious... probably going to be some drinking involved... so if anyone is coming out in this direction, please feel free to stop by. but.. i guess wait until we confirm this thought... nothing official as of yet... we need to talk to a few members of the band still.. haha

work is going... i'm not getting paid enough but i think i'm getting by..

ahh, that's enough for now... take care everyone :)

love ash