Sunday, December 04, 2005

When is it over?

Funerals are... what are funerals? really? is it for the deceased? or for the leftovers? After attending my Grandma's funeral this week I have been thinking about death more than usual.. (obviously).. My family knew she was going to pass away... just like we all know that someday we are going to die. so.. why is everyone so unprepared for death? We live like we will live forever.. And we live like our loved ones will live forever by our side. But life really is fragile...

This past week has been filled with thoughts.. I know this is said often.. but live like today is your last.. I have heard that so many times that I think i lost the meaning of it...

I know scientifically that my family will someday die.. and i know that all of my friends will die.. just as mother nature should have it... but do i really comprehend that I don't know when they will die? Not until recently... Today might be the last day of my life.. I could be gone tomorrow.. What will you regret? And if you died tomorrow... what will i regret? I couldn't bear another death right now.. I need to get over so much regret as it is... So... I'm going to try, once again to live like tomorrow is your last... all of you... or... tomorrow is my last...

And should tomorrow be my last.... smile! have a good time.. i wouldn't want it any other way... celebrate death! And should you die before me, i'm going to celebrate your death. Of all the religious hodge-podge out there, with the combination of my uncertainty for any of it, I believe that if you want a heavenly afterlife, you will have it. Don't let guilt run/ruin your life

Song for my funeral: Sigur Ros - Saeglopur (this song could be viewed as being a really sad song.. or a really happy song... I want it to be heard as a happy song.. )

Love Ash

6 comments:

Matthew said...

It all depends on faith (or lack there of) when it comes to funerals. For athiests its a sense of closure for a loved one, whereas for someone who is more spiritually inclined its a way to set the spirit of the person to the next realm. Like the egyptians for example, who would align the pyramids so that the soul of the king could find osiris.
I like to think its a combination of the two, and also a final honoring of the person, a party just for them.

Dingus said...

Death is a part of life. People are so materialistically wrapped up in their own existence that it's no surprise death springs up unexpectedly and brings with it the irrational ideas that death shouldn't be a part of life. I agree that death should be celebrated, as eccentric as it sounds. The love and life you share and make with other people is the only eternal thing in this world. Yours essence will exist in others lives after you're gone if you've made that valuable and personal impression on them. So live, love, and celebrate death!

Syxx said...

I love you Leeam. And i'll dance at your party that's just for you.

RAts said...

Thinking about how life is so fragile, it really makes a lot of life seem so trivial. What makes up life without these things? Would we be better off? When our mortalitly finaly does catch up to us, what good will/can we leave behind? Other than all our shit...

Anonymous said...

lee you need to post on your blog more

Anonymous said...

I know people will cry at my funeral. Like my family. But I hope my friends will be able to laugh. The more laughter the better.
I really like your blogs. You have a good way with words. Anyone can blog, it's just your feelings and that's admirable, but your blogs really make me contemplate. Good work.